What Keeps David Small Up At Night

I do keep up at night. I try not to let my mind go to extremes in the middle of the night because it
would be better to turn all that stuff into dreams. It would be better if I was sleeping, because
dreams become good metaphors for what's really going on inside of you. But, I come from a
family of -- my mother worried about money all the time, and I think her being a Depression
child was part of that. But that vision of hers of always ending up in the poorhouse, or her kind
of—she never talked about it, but I'm sure she had apocalyptic personal visions of poverty and
destitution that have infected me and, you know my brother has the same anxieties. And it's silly,
really, but that's part of the family tradition, and it's something that I would hope to break
sometime in my life. But I don't know if it's ever going to go away. You know, I worry about
money, I worry about security. And nowadays, it's really easy to fret about that sort of thing. I try
not to watch the news too much because that just aggravates the anxiety.