Absolutely, there’s definitely times that I am not feeling positive and that’s usually when I am in pain. And I am usually in pain first thing in the morning and that’s because I am on two different kinds of medication. One is a long-lasting medication, which is in my body for the most part, 24 hours a day. And then I have the breakthrough medicine, which lasts a short amount of time and I take it just when I have immediate pain.
So when I am sleeping, I don’t take the breakthrough medicine and I wake up in pain usually, unless I schedule a time to wake up in the middle of the night to take the medicine. So, it’s those times when I feel my lower back and I feel my bones and that I just, it scares me and I want to, I wonder, “Is this it, is this going to be the end? Is this what it feels like to die? Is this, is this going to get better?”